As I sit here and try to keep my mind focused on all the thoughts that are running through my mind, I am over whelmed with all that I have learned this week.
Some days I wish I had never heard of God until now. This may sound shocking to those who know me, but I have good reason for this wish.
Growing up I was always faithfully taught by my parent’s, dorm parent’s, and teachers of God’s love, His care, His faithfulness, etc… I grew up knowing God, and having Him as my own in my heart. I could have chosen to ignore it all, and go my own way when I left home, but I did not. God is very real and very dear to me even now, six years later.
So why would I wish to not have grown up with every minute of the day being taught about God. The reason I feel this way, is that I would want to know how I felt about God and how real He would be to me if someone came up to me an unsaved person, doing my own thing in the world, never knowing about God’s faithfulness & care. I want to know how I would hear God’s Word, how I would accept His promises, how I would appreciate His death & resurrection. Would I work harder to love Him, & follow His Will?
Take God’s beauty shown on this earth for example. Take all the little moments, which turn into memories that we hold close to us. One of my special memories that I thank the Lord for is Moon-lit walks along the beach in Panama. We often got to have such special times when I was growing up. Just this past month my husband and I got to go visit my parent’s in Panama & help them out with moving house. One evening we got to have a moon-lit walk along the beach, this time hand in hand with the man God has so richly blessed me with. This is something I will never forget, or laying on the beach and staring at the star-FILLED sky, which we also got to do.
It is during such times it more then easy to thank the Lord for who He is, how wonderful and majestic He is, how caring He is. He could have put man & woman on this earth, dull, grey, dry, and everything horrible. But when man sinned, he was cut off from God, and things then became rough for man. There are now biting snakes, prickly thorns, poison, fear, etc… BUT God also left His beauty here for us to enjoy.
Just this morning I woke up to unspeakable beauty with how the snow landed on all the trees. As much as I hate winter and cold, snow is just beautiful. And to think I have been washed white as snow, free from my sins! More amazement as I think on WHY? Why does God want to love me, save me, be with me for the rest of eternity? ONLY because I have been washed white as this beautiful, virgin snow through His Son.
It is during such times it more then easy to thank the Lord for who He is, how wonderful and majestic He is, how caring He is.
So what does God’s beauty & my sin have to do with my wishes to know how I would think of God if I had not grown up hearing about Him every day?
The point comes from a book I asked for Christmas, that I am reading through at the moment written by Martha Peace. It’s called “The Excellent Wife”. I just finished a chapter on the wife & sin. I have been blessed from God to have such a strong desire to love my husband & to be his excellent wife. This is God’s will for me as a wife, & I love how much help this book has been, just to sort through thoughts of HOW TO BECOME an excellent wife.
Anyhow, I was reading through the chapter on sin, and Martha put in a sentence that has really made me think hard about stuff since. She wrote talking about putting off the old self, and putting on the new self in Christ “How godly you become, depends on how hard you work at it”. We have to continuously be thinking good thoughts of our husbands, as wives. Whether they are “perfect” husbands or not, we wives MUST constantly be thinking right, godly thoughts of our husbands ESPECIALLY in times of strife.
The thing that really hit me was… the putting on of the new self. I have no idea why but for some reason growing up, I always had this thought that once we got saved the “NEW” self just was there, because we not had the holy spirit in us. The part I missed was yes, we are filled with the Holy Spirit, BUT the HS is for equipping us to put the new self on, to grow in God’s image & His glory. I am to work hard to put the new self on, and only through the help of the HS is it made possible for me to do so!!
“How godly you become, depends on how hard you work at it.”